It feels like it shouldn't be 2020, yet here we are, over two months in. Sorry for the delay. Honestly, you have missed very little.
I didn't update anything during December of last year because I was busy almost every damn day. I know that sounds like an exaggeration, but it wasn't. The first day I had to myself was December 26th, and I didn't really even have that to myself, but it was the first day of that month that I didn't have to go to work, church, to some kind of gathering, or anything like that. I mostly slept. It was amazing. Christmas was great, however. I got to spend it with family, which I love dearly, although I missed my friends that are scattered far and wide. Being an adult sucks sometimes, because where you might have once had dinner or coffee with a friend, caught up for a bit, said Happy Holidays and all of that, there is no time for that anymore. We are all in our own spaces and places, and while that is understandable, I still miss seeing them in person. Social media creates a pale shade of friendship sometimes, but we take what we can get these days.
2) I also didn't update anything in January, because not much of note happened then, either. Seriously, I just had to look at my phone to see if we actually did anything during the month. Haha! Of course you know the saying, pics or it didn't happen!
I was actually reminded that we did go out for new years eve. Steve, Anthony, and me went to Noccalula Falls Park because they had the whole place strung up with lights for Christmas, and since we'd never had time to go during December we went that night. It was weird and trippy and so much fun! It was like someone on acid decided to decorate their yard for the holidays. There was a little train that circled the place and a petting zoo with a lemur! (We didn't get to pet the lemur, damnit, but it was there and that's what is important.) I suppose it sounds kind of childish, but we had a really good time. The drive up there was fun, as journeys with friends usually are, and on our way home we had dinner at the Boaz Waffle House. I'm fairly certain we shared the evening with a meth dealer, because Boaz Waffle House. We got home, literally, just a few minutes before midnight, toasted, and went to bed. It was a fun evening.
Oooh! Steve and I also got to go to this thing at the SpRocket (ptooey) called the Mad Scientist Bash, which is, well, a mad scientist themed fundraising party where the money goes to sponsor STEM programs. Steve's company bought some tickets, and since he knew I was always ready to wear a costume, he said we would go! It was a lot of fun, and we looked so cute! BEHOLD:
We had to go to a legit medical supply place to buy our lab coats, and trying to explain to the lady who was helping us why we needed them was a little weird, but she had a good sense of humor about it. It was slightly swanky, costumes notwithstanding, and I have learned that this kind of thing is full of people who have money that they can toss at a fundraiser all willy-nilly. A lady at our table threw out $1,800.00 on something she probably can't even use during the auction portion of the evening, and while that isn't a lot of money in the larger scheme of things, it is a lot to bid at an auction on a whim. She asked if we were going to bid on anything and all I could do was laugh nervously. I've never sat so still in my whole life. I couldn't even scratch my nose! Other than that, we had a grand old time.
There was one thing that kind of, well, it didn't hurt my feelings exactly, but it irked me. I haven't worked there in 10 years, but there are people still there that worked with me for years and years. People that I went to dinners with and hung out with outside of work and all of that. I saw a lady I've known for I don't know how long, and stopped to say hello, and she had no idea who I was. This is someone I considered a friend and she didn't have a clue. I have seen her and talked to her several times since I left the place, even, so for her not to know me was weird. Eh, well, maybe she didn't recognize me because she didn't expect to see me with Huntsville-society-old-money-people. Haha!
3) I have been working a lot, which is another reason I haven't posted much. Working at the church, at the cybersecurity office, and doing my freelance work makes for one dull boy...uh, I mean, Kelly. By the time I come home from work, and if I don't have any graphics stuff to do, I usually turn my brain off. I need to stop doing that, or I'm going to become a pudding brain. I haven't done any of my hobbies in months and months! I have good intentions, and I make trips to Hobby Lobby for supplies that end up sitting on a shelf, but one day I'll get back to it!
All of my jobs are currently going well, though, although I've cut my time at the newest job in half until the new contracts open up in a month or so. I still really like my new boss, and I haven't had to travel again, but I've come to realize that I actually enjoy office admin work I do there. I'm on the ground floor, so eventually as the business grows I'll move on to something else, but I'm having fun helping her get started and organized. Also, I love her dog Henry. :)
4) My birthday was wonderful this year, thank you for asking. Everyone I love the most in the world was a part of it in one way or another. I got to have lunch with my mom and sister, which was fun. I also decided that, since I went to the trouble of buying a cocktail dress for a party that I didn't end up getting to go to, that I would wear it on our day out. I was a big, chubby, green sequined disco ball of a person, and I don't regret it a bit! I was a glorious land-dwelling mermaid! I got to at least talk/message with my friends that I couldn't see in person, and one of them made me a video that I loved wholeheartedly, and it was just a very good day. I hope I have many more birthdays just as nice.
5) This morning, I had a very bad anxiety attack at the gym and had to leave less than three minutes into my work out. I am SO PISSED OFF. Y'all, I hate that I have anxiety attacks. They make me feel scared and weak and helpless and I am NONE OF THOSE THINGS. I hate every single second of them. I'm actually kind of glad that I am angry about it, because angry sure beats the hell out of scared. My newer medication usually take care of them, but I've had a couple attacks recently that have knocked me flat. I don't know why the meds have off days, but there you go. What makes me even madder about this morning was that I really need to be able to go to the gym. No, really, I do. I have gained back every pound, plus extra, that I lost on that horrible diet we did in 2018 (which I will one day talk about when I'm not so embarrassed about it) and when I am motivated enough to work out, I need to do it. I literally ran out of the gym and hid at home. Stupid brain making stupid crossed signals! I am a powerful sea witch, you guys! I don't have time for anxiety attacks! Grrrr.
6) So I think that catches us all up! I know you haven't been holding your breath about what I've been doing, but I do like to check in now and again so that you know that, as of this writing at least, I am still alive. I hope you're still alive too! I mean, I guess you are since you're reading thing, but I hope the being alive continues. For the both of us. I want us all to be alive for a good long time to come. You know what I mean. I'll quit typing now.
7) WAIT! One more thing.
I hug you.
