1) I'm a terrible judge of character. I think I've always kind of known this about myself, but it never really seemed to matter much until recently. If someone is nice to me, I tend to think "Oh, this person is awesome!" and I ignore the bigger picture. I mean, I'm not completely daft. I think there is a part of me that can know some things about people really well, and I can see things about them that they don't realize I can see, but even then, as a whole, I don't always judge them correctly. I'm sure I'm not the only one, of course. I'm sure we've all known people like the friend you thought you could confide your problems to, who might listen to you talk, but turns out not to really care all that much about your actual problems. Then there is the person you think is so nice and fun to be around, but they are only that way to those they think need to see that part of them, and secretly they are kind of awful to other people. I'm sure you can add your own experiences with people to this list ad nauseum, and you'd never get to the end of it. People are multi-faceted and honestly, we only see the parts that they let the light shine on when we're with them. I'm sure I've badly disappointed people who thought I was better than I really am, so I shouldn't be too shocked about finding out that someone I considered a friend and all around awesome person turned out to be a black hole of absolute suckage, but I am. I think what bothers me most is that I was so convinced that this person was great that I wasn't seeing what should have been completely obvious.
Now, before you start to wonder who has done what to me, I need to let you know that what brought on this realization has nothing at all to do with me. This person has never been anything other than decent and helpful towards me, personally. This is pretty much why I'm being intentionally vague. Since it isn't my problem, I can't (with good conscience) lay it all out here for you fine folks. Trust me, I'd love to do it, though. Oh, and also, this person is litigious and has no scruples about suing someone over them publicly talking about what they did. Glad I found that out before saying anything. While I don't think they read my blog, I have certainly learned my lesson about posting certain things online. I don't know if I've ever known anyone to be morally reprehensible before, but this person is. It makes me kind of sad, too, though. I actually really liked them, but after being fooled by them for so long, I couldn't ever feel the same way. I hate when people suck.
2) Steve got a solo for his spring/summer concert series! Woot! I'm very proud. It isn't a long solo, but he's tickled, so I also have sympathy tickles. Hopefully, I'll have a video of him playing it at some point. He's doing really great in the MCB and I'm glad he's found something that he likes to do and is a stress reliever from his work. It's his thing, and I'm glad he's enjoying it. If you saw the video of Butler "singing" while Steve played the trumpet, don't worry. He really plays much better than that!
3) I wish I could find a "thing." I haven't really enjoyed doing anything in a long time. That sounds weird, but it's true. I feel kind of stuck. I have dozens of hobbies, but I haven't liked doing any of them lately. It's really strange, because it's like I'm in a holding pattern, waiting for something, but I have no idea what I'm waiting on. I don't even have any idea what kind of thing I'd like to do. You know how sometimes you are talking, and you get stuck while trying to think of a word? That's how my whole life feels right now. I hope whatever I'm waiting on is a good thing.
Is that odd? It seems like it might be odd. I dunno. Maybe I'll take up tightrope walking or something. I just wish I didn't feel so stuck. I NEED A THING!
4) Have you ever heard that smell is the sense closest tied to memory? I find that to be very true, but it may be because I can smell things better than most people. Honestly, have you seen my nose? :) Well, I bought a tube of lip gloss the other day, and the smell of it reminds me of something, but I can't remember what it is. All I get is a feeling of uneasiness, like whatever the smell reminds me of might not be such a nice thing, but for the life of me, I have no idea what it is! It's a very particular smelling lip gloss, and it isn't something I have used often, so you'd think it wouldn't be hard to remember what it reminds me of! It's a mystery! I kind of think it might remind me of a date I went on when I was 15 or so and the guy tried to kiss me and I was REALLY not wanting him to (we didn't date long, obvs), so I had to dodge him a lot, but I'm not sure that's it.
5) I'm afraid that almost my whole blog post has seemed a bit negative. To alleviate this I present to you: