I know that I don't have any right to say anything about the election. I didn't vote. I couldn't. I know that sounds stupid, if not downright reprehensible, to a lot of people, but I couldn't, with good conscience, support either candidate. My gut didn't trust Hillary Clinton, and my brain didn't trust Donald Trump.
I struggled with it. I didn't want to be one of those people who just couldn't make a decision, but I couldn't see how either one would be good. I felt guilty about not going, but I didn't want to just go and vote for the sake of getting a sticker so I could post a selfie, either. I also wasn't going to let anyone shame me into making an empty gesture, because screw that noise. The world is full of empty gestures, you know? If I'm going to get behind something, I want to believe in it with some conviction and not just because it's the "thing to do."
Last night I was alone, bored, and not feeling particularly well. I think if I'd had someone to watch the election results with, I might have done so, but instead I went to bed early. I kept up with some of the results online until I got sleepy.
When I woke up this morning, I was truly unprepared to find out that Donald Trump had won this election.
I genuinely thought Hillary Clinton was going to win. I really did. Whether or not I trusted her, she at least had some experience. I can't say I'm sorry she lost, but I can say I'm confused that she lost.
So for better or for for worse this living muppet, Donald Trump, is our new president. I honestly hope it isn't the disaster that it very well could turn into. All of this really blows my mind.
So...yeah. God bless America.