This morning I got up, got ready for church, and sat down to eat my breakfast.
BREAKFAST: Cinnamon Raisin Bar. This was actually very good. It was sweet and would have tasted better if I'd heated it up. It had some kind of powdery stuff on it that I couldn't identify, but that didn't deter me from cramming it into my face as fast as possible. I've mentioned that I'd gladly buy some of the Nutrisystem breakfast bars if they were sold in stores, but alas, they are only available through the program. I think, anyway. I could probably order some of them online if I really wanted to search, but I don't think it's come to that yet.
At any rate, church services hadn't even begun before I was already hungry again. I know it must sound like I spend my life in a constant state of hungriness, but I swear that's not true. There are times, I promise, when food isn't foremost in my mind. That hasn't happened much this week, but it is possible. We came home to eat lunch and I just broke. I couldn't do it anymore. What was left in our boxes was ham and bean soup, and ravioli in sauce. I couldn't make myself eat them. I just couldn't do it. All I could think of was being hungry and wishing I was eating something else. I didn't even taste the soup, I just make some veggie bacon and started roasting brussels sprouts, because I'd reached my limit on what I was willing to do to follow this program. So again: Egg, Veggie Bacon, Brussel Sprouts, 100 calorie slice of bread and 60 calories worth of Smarties. After lunch, though, I knew I was going to be done. I realize this is basically be stopping a marathon with the finish line in sight, but I don't care. Forgive me. I'm weak.
I'll write more about this later. I'm going to go get a cheeseburger.